cough.
arm hurt.
inhale.
sodium receptor.
arm hurt.

there is always another hot one.

i am thinking of you less.

yesterday i totally fell on my face off my bike.

same as it ever was.
statements unkept.
i fall harder.

my hit rap song
i have come to an undefinite conclusion
there are no real solutions
when we move forward we only change the resolution.
these horizontal lines are great divides
they dont allow us to collide
when i see you, i dont see me
thats the way you wanted it to be.

When my mind's uncertain
My body decides

done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done donedone done

rough.
sucks.



smile.
smile.

i think, i remember, i see, i cry, i look, i talk, i smile, i feel

time to think for only me (and the earth and its creatures, kinda) and to be myself, by myself.


feeling better.

I saw peter singer tonight, nothing new, but interesting. also of note was who elected to sit next to me.

just bought the new Death Cab CD, I am sure it will make me happier.

a heart that hurts is a heart that works.
- juliana hatfield.

.

first a digression from the break:
this grad school shit is scary. i mean i remember how scared I was when I came to U of I. Relocating again to be with all strangers, thats heavy. Change. I am looking at states like ohio and indiana, I mean c'mon. It makes me secondguess my guesses of the future.

My sister's away message:
you said when I was ready..
you'd be waiting...
for sure this time.

-How internet savy we are.


I am going to try to do some HW, good luck mike.
thanks mike.

this morning is better so far.
still woke early.

r.w.emerson

Our first journeys show us how little difference places make. At home I dream that at Naples, at Rome, I can be intoxicated with beauty and lose my sadness. I pack my bags, hug my friends, get on the plane, and wake up in Naples, and there next to me is the cruel fact, the sad self, unrelenting, identical, that I fled from. I look for the Vatican and the palaces. I pretend to be intoxicated with sights and suggestions, but I am not intoxicated. My giant goes with me wherever I go.

"that the outside can't penetrate to your insides, that your soul is a free as you can think of, and that the actions we do don't mean much, especially when they are for other people. So I don't know what I am trying to say, maybe I am saying is that you come first, and thats it."

"just try to listen to where your heart is beating. and once you figure that out, try to stop listening to it, and keep up with it, don't let it yearn for elsewhere"
-tahd

let go.