progress.

Like a sea of broken glass,
Heading towards my humble wrath,
I cannot change the past,
I have chosen this path.

I will not change my path.

today (right now) this is how i feel: blah. Its one of those days that you want to say 'go away' but you really just want to be hugged.
so it goes.

toying with mediocrity.
places ill never see,
keep me awake at night.
for whose sake do I fight?

i give up.

a picture is worth a thousand words.
your screams will not be heard.

useless to say, i will not be deterred.

masked by those with education,
the story crumbles upon its foundation.

hurtful words are now out to play,
trying to keep the secrets away.

like a wave of shattered glass.

its amazing how much of me is spent on this subject. dumb girls. i dont even want to date. you would think that i did, but i dont, which makes the whole situtation more weird. problems arise from the preconceptions of boy girl relationships and where they lead.

seen it in a light i have never seen it in before, so this new knowledge will most likely take me somewhere.

relief/worry

this news has made me realize i am insane ( not in a clinical sense), i need to end the apathy.

call me.

my mind is filled with (kinda). not always thinking, but at least omnipresent(not really though). well not exaclty consumption, but just there, so i guess i am being exagerative. i'll see what happens, when something appears to be right but maybe is not and only appears right for one of us but not for the other, making it not right, right? danielle started school today and i am trying to read the book.

i am now at school. overwhelmed, a little like always. and people, me. i live with the crickets. I have been once again deluged with feelings for someone who is amazing, yet these will just ferment for now, more than likely, forever for fear that truth will cut the cord. i also have to come to a conlusion with another (person). I am still feeling 'blah'.

why do we insert all this effort into gf or bf relationship and to an extent put are other relationships on auto?

i miss my friends, or rather have missed them, even when then there, everyone is busy or pretends to be.

miss me tonight.