test tomorrow. hope it goes well.
still need to be less college and more student.
other that that, had a good weekend with a girl.
yup.

'full of hows, but empty of whys'

i saw matt sharp tonight (ex weezer, ex rentals) he played all acoustic very soft music for almost 2 hours. it was different, he sang about girls alot. i got two cds today, sbb/tcl split and this guy called rocky volatato they are both good. i think i have a song almost done, i am getting more comfortable with my voice and any shortcomings involved with it. ummm, thats it. i am reading the book 'desert solataire' by edward abbey, so far so good.

i live in the basement. no one visits just to hang out, only if they need something. alot of my relationships are like this, i have to be the initiator. or maybe i just don't wait long enough, although i don't think this is it. so i am kinda bummed right now, for multiple reasons. nothing major.

his throat swells leaving him tacit,
had things to say that are now only thoughts,

she looks beautiful tonight not in a lustful way.
she is glooming with an energy that would be hard to justify with words,
he wants to say 'stay'. he can't.

as the match's flame draws to a close and the odor fades
he can only think of the what if's.
annoyed at this.

they embrace each other, if only in their minds.
the dawn approaches and they will be gone.
but for now, they are the soul propriators.

in the middle so to speak. but actually i am basically on one side.

tomorrow i want to wake up and be better,
i want to be best i want to be best.
naked in my newness,
crawling,
crawling toward my new afliction: the start.

today/yesterday i ate wild rice, a banana and conrflakes. i drove to and from st louis, saw a cathedral, a zoo and a rock show. cursive wailed hard. the other bands were also good. on the way home and i didnt use the stereo either, just me and the dark. me and my mind. i had a good time.

all we can do is be honest,
with ourselves and others.
yet this is easier said than done,
i am a witness.

i just at some yogurt (that is really a funny word) i hope it wasn't bad. in other news, i was in channel 15 news last night for like point five seconds. i helped give away free vegan food yesterday on the quad to raise vegetarian awarness. it was nice. tonight i am going to see nirvana live.
its raining now and its beautiful.
hasta entonces,

to save the world we need to do a few things. 1.) Be an interested person. 2.) Be an interesting person. 3.) Stop professional wrestling.

i took a few exams this week, which then tells me (like always) that I need to study more and me more student and less college. Hopefully i will do better next time, not only for grades sake but also for the general education/learning process.