so hetero.
i get stuck. i need to be me, but i want something else to cling onto. or just something that makes me feel like i am doing something even though i'm not: social security. but, whatever. i mean people typically equate to learning and i say that i am into that. but effort. i mean effort. effort is hard to gauge when i am looking for an ending that i cant describe. maybe its that i just cant wait. i don't know.