Wednesday, November 20, 2002

i think i have ADD.

Tuesday, November 19, 2002

I am coming home thursday night, i haven't been home since september. two tests to go. maybe, if i am lucky I might get to write two papers over break. right now i am listening to the descendents and I have been up for about a .5 hour, early.

Sunday, November 17, 2002

study study study
is all i am doing (kinda) If i was a real student always it would be whack. Three tests this week, blah blah. I have been studying a bit hanging out a bit. I went to Wabash College this weekend, it was fun, yesterday till today i was in a bed for about 15 hours. However i didnt sleep in excess. ummm, going to study now.

Friday, November 15, 2002

looking into the water,
all we see is reflections.

all we want is redemption.

all i want is gone.

Wednesday, November 13, 2002

i have been more student lately. writing and reading etc.

Tuesday, November 12, 2002

the sun shines every morning.

Monday, November 11, 2002

then i get defensive, which includes thoughts, often racing. i remain tacit.

tonight i said something not important.
tomorrow i will do the same.
I did it yesterday as well.

i would like to say ouch, or just cower when confronted. but to be honest i have no good explanation. but when confronted i do question my nature, unfortunately i dont think i know exactly what it is i should be thinking about or saying.


Sunday, November 10, 2002

el mensajero no esta importante. me gusta mucho esta frase, no se porque pero me gusta mucho. cuando esta frase esta dicho, tiene un sonido muy bonita o algo como asi. Y por eso voy a continuar diciendo esta frase.

Friday, November 08, 2002

i have been writing seemingly without stopping about trees and forest ecology. yee haw. in fact double yee haw. i am doing fine, perhaps still on auto-pilot.

Tuesday, November 05, 2002

last week a really cool guy, tom sullivan, died. I hadn't thought about him much recently . i hadn't seen him much since college started. but in that year of working with him, i became sure he was a seriously cool guy. so now i think about that. and how i should be that cool, to do something to help. i didn't know him as well as others, so i can only imagine what they feel like, those who were his 'kids'
out. then i think maybe i am not allowed to have these thougts, since i haven't seen him for awhile. but then i know that is dumb.

talking about raves in canyons and the divergence of hippies.

Sunday, November 03, 2002

had a party at the house this weekend, had some friends down.
'this is the best party ever' - onur armagan.

i want a sequel to the affair from before,
to draw tight the drawstrings from earlier.
I want to be released through the action of taughtness.
then I want many things.