Sunday, August 31, 2003

until then

things lost.
energy concentrated into black.
take it back.
listless and heavy.
running on *e.
lost and searching.
pain, the past both lurking.
i hope.
we hope.
words don't work when our minds are broke.
show me how it hurts.
i will absorb and reflect.
this trainwreck.
curse. curse.
making amends.
translucent gray,
pretend, believe it'll be ok.
I always want the end to be the same.
pray or don't.
dream i don't.

Saturday, August 23, 2003

free as a flippin bee
frolic, frolic
new this, new that
its amazing,
leaving what i took for granted.
one day this will be old too,
and it will taken too.
but now I am free,
my roots shrivel alone.
will have the same demise.
it wont matter because i am as free as a bee.

Monday, August 18, 2003

not too many people read this.
if you do call me.
or send me your number and Ill call you.

Wednesday, August 13, 2003

backwards lament.
forward intent.
time wasted.
time spent.

Monday, August 11, 2003

fallen asleep.

hung your voice with the telephone wire,
11 key punches feed my desires.
Controling you from afar.
swallowing your voice,
you are left behind,
if you were given the choice would you change your mind?
I pen the page,
create your face,
make your age,
state the place.
does it make you tired?
like it makes me?
do you even notice what it is I do for you?
you cannot escape when you sense no danger.
i can see.
i can see.

Thursday, August 07, 2003

rely intr.v.
1.)To be dependent for support, help, or supply.
2.)To place or have faith or confidence.

We rely on others and that is all we can do outside of ourselves.

Tuesday, August 05, 2003


Its that time again, when thoughts are drifting towards that of the "growed-up" world. I was thinking today that I don't ever want to work an honest days work, in the conventional sense. so be it. Maybe i will be able to do this. Time will tell. I am a lover and I am loved. Fear is so weird, I don't want to be afraid, but sometimes I am. I feel like I should'nt be afraid ever that's not the way it goes. I want to be educated, what am I waiting for?