Sunday, June 29, 2003

crackle crackle songbird.
voice leaves warm.
stay.
ink on.
dirty face welcomes me.
sweat reminds me.
like a sponge I consume.
i exude to you myself.

summer's song seems fleeting (somtimes.)
I have been enjoying myself lately.
Music really kicks my ass, I am trying to explore some older music, but to no avail as of yet.

Wednesday, June 25, 2003

saying 'fuck' aloud.

Sunday, June 22, 2003

Moving units' song "I am" is kicking my ass.

its ok with me.
the weekend was good.
waking up. waking down.
water wets and surrounds us in sound.
waving good day.
erasing a frown.
painting what we say.
breathe with the trees.
aloud.

Friday, June 20, 2003

sunshine drip drops.
clock tick tocks.
time goes nowhere.
sometimes.
crash crash
boom boom.
nevertheless,
I am smiling.
neverthemore,
I am smiling.
it may be behind an iron face,
its there.

Wednesday, June 18, 2003

sometimes i just got hung up when i dont get everythhing out. i dwell. i dont expect the same in return, i really dont. sometimes i just forget what i expect or dont. so then i dwell. its going.

today at work I slept in a van and read a chapter in a textbook. and i got paid.

Tuesday, June 17, 2003

i got you a present. i'll wait until then to give it to you.

i check my email like a burn victim pressing the button for more morphine, only I find no solace as the machine and wires check for "electronic-faceless thinking of yous." I suppose just like a person with charred flesh and singed hair, my need to press the button will too recede.

Monday, June 16, 2003

why bother? its gonna hurt me.

a note on culture. we all want to experience alot of things and may even have expectations about these. we can't experience everything first hand. we use culture to assimilate the most we can about that in which we do not experience personally. we all want something always, we can't have it all. how do we decide, then, what to do, which things to experience. and what to abandon?

its hard tending to the garden, when you know the hail storm will destroy it.

Wednesday, June 11, 2003

am 1 , 2 , or 3.
you decide. so will i.
thats why things are fine.

here i go again.

scare ( P ) Pronunciation Key (skâr)
v. scared, scar·ing, scares
v. tr.
To strike with sudden fear; alarm.
v. intr.
To become frightened: a child who scares easily.
n.
A condition or sensation of sudden fear.
A general state of alarm; a panic: a bomb scare that necessitated evacuating the building.
adj.
Serving or intended to frighten people: scare stories; scare tactics.

Sunday, June 01, 2003

i am reading the catcher in the rye for the first time and I am liking it. I need some other books, suggestions?