Thursday, December 29, 2005

and time won't bring it back.

I got 24 different types of ginger ale/beer from K. for a gift. I think I will document the flavor and enjoyability of each one. More to come [...]

After going home for a few days and returning I feel nostalgic or with a sense of want for some of the things at my old home. My friends, I'd like to feel part of the loop, but time has a way of making that funny sort of. My home is in Urbana and I love my friends and shit here, but there is the feeling of piety for the old. So I miss it sometimes. But what is it that I miss? Is it just that of being young(er)? of what that entails? or is it something else?

Lately I feel like this exteneded schooling is preventing me from "living my life" like I can't start my life until school is over. This I know might be a little silly and as much as I want to start living, I don't want to, you know start Adulthood with its daggers and teeth.

Wednesday, December 28, 2005

moving on up

without a locale.
do i want to be here or there or somewhere else?
where i am i going to end up?

Monday, December 19, 2005

Hold on my love.

Hold on.
Wait for what?
I still feel like I am holding on, like I am waiting for the train to come. that train being life, i mean when do we start living? i know i am living now, but when do i start living or rather feel like this is my mission this is what i am supposed to be doing forever. i understand that this may be a flawed concept to begin with, but it feels this way sometimes.

Monday, December 12, 2005

Stop making that face!

the end of the semester is always filled with woes, wishing that I had actually been a real student. I get frustrated with the academic process mostly because I have slacked-off until now and want this to be easier. And yet I have much time left. I wish I was finishing sooner, but alas Champaign-Urbana forever.

Tuesday, December 06, 2005

flavor nugget

Monday, November 07, 2005

everything is finite.

sometimes i wish i had a strong voice.
or a strong desire. a drive.
you know. motivation, to bring me past this current state of floating.
i need to help something or someone,
i want to have intuition,
to feel it in my gut.

brown headed school children,
flee from their mothers,
and turn into moths,
flying listlessly,
until they are devoured,
by the city that wasn't.

Sunday, November 06, 2005

Cure for the Common Old

I have been in urbana for a while and I'll be here a bit longer. But I've been thinking about how its ok only because (maybe) of who is here with me. sometimes I want to start on the next leg of the adventure, and sometimes I want to go back to what i know.


Friday, October 28, 2005


do you ever think about it?
the differences between us, specifically the practice and the preach.

Latley, here for the research I have been inverstigating via literature the differences in patch attributes and our ability to compare them, its gets more complex all the time. As it came up in class today, i have been thinking about Occam's razor and how its the razor that wins.

Wednesday, October 26, 2005


much work to do (academically and otherwise)

beetlejuice for halloween. i am painting a suit. i think it has character, lets just hope lydia does too.

need to academicate.

Tuesday, October 25, 2005

i have caught another cold, without ever losing the first. i just spent the latter half of last week in sacramento california. save the temperature and dominant plant species, it could have been anywhere. i guess this is true about most places. everybody knows this is nowhere, which is everywhere, get it?

Friday, September 30, 2005

Somewhere under the armpit.

do you ever think about it?

might as well face i am addicted to fossil fuel.
lately i have been bouncing back and forth between the worlds of wanting and the worlds of unwanting, when it comes to material posessions.

simplify simplify.
multiply multiply.

Monday, August 22, 2005

Today at work, i set out to accomplish alot. i accomplished a little. I depend on the computer for my current science.

"science!, brings gifts of convience to the modern man" ~the aquabats

Sunday, May 22, 2005

bands with managers are going places.

Sunday, February 13, 2005

valentines day?

Tuesday, February 01, 2005

whats up with that sad face?
i've been wearing this sad face lately, but i am not sad.
i get in this groove where i let one thing bother me and i dwell and i make a sad face, however if i didnt dwell and didnt make a sad face this thing that bothers me would either a.) resolve itself or b.) not bother me, its one of these 'vicious cycles'.

working is ok, i feel like i might make progress and that maybe the end product will be of merit.
tomorrow i am to begin a yoga class, which i am excited about. i need to exercise more to feel healthier. or rather be healthier. so hopefully yoga is the gateway exercise practice.

school is alright. i mean i am making myself more marketable for this economic system which is ok with me.

i want to have an adventure in the form of rekindled smitteness.

Tuesday, January 18, 2005

daytime tv.
ill normally be working right now.
i had a stats class this morning. it was okay and such.
the beginning of the semester is always overwhelming, esp. now since i have to work for real.
dum deh da da dum.

i am living back in IL and thats sweet and it very cold.