so i am not able to be a good student. i mean, not even that, i guess i am lacking ambition. or something, but i have this way of just exisiting almost on auto-pilot, not in the sense of predetermination, but rather like i am on this frictionless plane - which i guess could be equated to life for me at this current time. i suppose i could change it, but will i? the question of the hour (couple past years) may unfold itself at some point. until then i am open. hit me with your best shot.