i am now at school. overwhelmed, a little like always. and people, me. i live with the crickets. I have been once again deluged with feelings for someone who is amazing, yet these will just ferment for now, more than likely, forever for fear that truth will cut the cord. i also have to come to a conlusion with another (person). I am still feeling 'blah'.

why do we insert all this effort into gf or bf relationship and to an extent put are other relationships on auto?

i miss my friends, or rather have missed them, even when then there, everyone is busy or pretends to be.

miss me tonight.