ups and downs.

i wish i had a biorhythms book to look at right now, to explain the way i have been feeling. even though i dont believe in them, it might have been fun to have a lame excuse. does anyone like to fuck up? probably not, they only redeeming quality i can think of is that it will save you from doing it again and not feeling like you fucked up for the same thing again. iguess i need to remember that you're going to get wet.

i have a lot of school work to do. thinking that iam doing my best to live within the system.
if this was a "brave new world" i'd just take some soma. but you know what, that would suck. i wouldnt give up this reality. i'd just wish it was easier to be "perfect."